Now I'm not entirely sure, but I think I might have a bad rep amongst the other wives. Every time I just about have myself convinced that I'm imagining it, something will happen to make me certain that I'm not. Now it could be that a lot of the wives are younger in their early 20's and the others are older officer wives with grown kids and a career and I just have trouble relating as a stay at home mom at 30, though there are a few of us on the boat.
That being said there is one wife who I'm certain I must have offended at some point, but I just can't recall when. I do that a lot. I open my mouth and I say stupid shit. It could be the time I made a joke about my kids not matching at an FRG picnic "like any good navy wife" I believe I said. Or maybe I said something about her baby. Or maybe I said something about anal at some point (I wouldn't put it past me). Or maybe she's a real lady and doesn't like my crass attitude. I dunno. What I do know is that she seems really awkward around me, gives me funny looks when I say "hello", seems to ignore me when possible, and I have been taken off her facebook, though with the new timeline I can now see exactly what it is I'm not supposed to see when other friends comment on her, I just don't have it on my wall. I'll bet she'll want to fix that when she finds out. I guess it doesn't bother me too much. I understand that I'm a little much for some people (see above) and I'm okay with that it's just confusing when she sends a polite note my way "Like, oh look, it is all in your head!" only to follow that up with more awkwardness.
Then there's the rest. There are a lot of great ladies in our FRG and they are really sweet and nice people, but I get the feeling that I'm getting the "oh look, there's that wife who says things she really should have kept to herself" vibe off some of them. And that's understandable, I do say stupid shit. I just can't help myself and sometimes I'll meet someone else who understands that and we'll be friends but sometimes I feel like I should probably lock myself in the house and not force others to endure my little quirks. Mostly so I can avoid the inevitable moment when I go "Gah! I really shouldn't have explained the penis showing game to a bunch of wives! What the hell was I thinking when I said that?!?" So it's really no wonder I get some looks. They are all really great and it's not their fault that I act like I have a severe case of Inappropriate Anecdote Tourette's every time I'm in a social situation.
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People are just to freaking judgemental sometimes. Be you, and be damned what they think.
It's the nature of people and normally this wouldn't affect me much, but right now I'm in no frame of mind to deal with it properly. Perhaps in a few months. Eh, who am I kidding? I'll still go to these things because the girls enjoy them so much and if I'm being positive maybe I'll grow on someone! You know, like a fungus.
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